Hardy, Eliot, and OCD

by Matt B. on April 21, 2015

Sometimes, others just say it better.


OCD makes me feel afraid of many things. At the deepest level, though, they all have something in common: They’re all thoughts.


OCD’s Infernal Call and Response

by Matt B. on April 9, 2015

And as he is who dreams of his own harm / Who dreaming wishes it may be a dream, / So that he craves what is, as if it were not – Inferno, Canto XXX

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I’ve collected my first nineteen OCD essays into book form. It’s now available in paperback and Kindle versions.


Most books about obsessive-compulsive disorder fall into two categories. First, there are the memoirs – first-person accounts of journeys through OCD’s hell. (Fletcher Wortmann’s Triggered and Traci Foust’s Nowhere Near Normal, for example, offer enormously moving and dead-accurate pictures of what it’s like to live this life.)


If I Should Die Before I Publish

April 2, 2015

I’ve been working on a book for the past nine months, and I’m afraid I’ll die before I finish. Some of this is just melodramatic impatience; approaching the conclusion of a big project can be a nervy experience for anyone. But some of it is OCD.

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OCD and the Morning Blindside

March 30, 2015

OCD attacks first thing in the morning – before I have a chance to realize that I haven’t done anything wrong. In my grogginess, sounds and sensations – and above all, feelings – are heightened, unfiltered.

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